pursuit of happiness

how do you pursue happiness? what makes you strive so hard yah know? likeeeeeeeee does money make you happy so you pursue in getting a lot of money? or is happiness always a momentary thing? orrrr could happiness possibly be something that is much more than that, something you really want the most, like love, friends, family, overall happiness in your life.

today i went to prayer meeting, possibly the best one so far. it was such an amazing night sitting next to a pretty lady and a handsome fellow. i honestly came to the prayer meeting having nothing to really talk about, but man does bacon get you to really think, and by think i mean you deeply comprehend and disect what is really on your mind and waht you really feel. we're all so selfish in our own ways, thinking we have the worst end of life or not being as fortunate cuz i know i think like that constantly. but then i met people who live it a little harder and even though they struggle they gotta put on a happy face so that their friends can make it through another day without worrying about them. how sad, good friend type of move is that. having to live yoru life with a pain you cant share with someone because you dont want them to feel sympathy or sad for you, and you want your friends to be happy. frick just thinking bout that makes me feel hecka stupid for feeling depressed about how i have nothing to do, forreal. but then again it helps me see how thankful i am for such great friends considering the situations i felt i was in a year ago. i feel so much growth over that year. every year makes you think the year before was such a clumsy time span though.. but man i just gotta say i'm fortunate and blessed to have such great friends, role models, and leaders in my life to help me direct myself to God without making a mistake that might take me totally of guard. i can only live my life to the fullest by the way i act and treat myself and others in life, but tahts all revolved around God. theres so many people who secretly care for one another but people like me are too blind to see these. idk where i'm going with this.. but i guess i'm just trying to say thank God for the gifts he's placed into my hands, such great friends, understanding family, and a wonderful life with all i could ever ask for thats not ridiculously stupid to ask for like a ferrari or for all the money in the world.. that sounds so stupid, yeah.. i love you munches and bunches chingoos :)