stressful

life is like monopoly, in some cases literally (it could also be like the game "LIFE" haha). your goal is to live the longest, having the most money, property, and just being the top dog. i feel like we're not suppose to live this way but i know i for one live like this almost everyday and it bothers me so much. what happened to being carefree and just being happy with waht you got, yah know? i dont have things and i try to do anything to get it now... its pathetic to see how desperate i can get for things like money or something i really want just so that i can possibly socially accepted kind of thing. aiming towards this goal people like myself put ourselves or others down. its also pathetic to think that this gets you pity from others. whats the difference between sympathy and pity? pity naturally just sounds more gross and its like people aim to receive pity. does that mean we try to get some kind of pity from others? you see these kind of things are like the chance card in monopoly, you know that that card sucks balls but you still have that hope that something beautiful, maginificant, smoething that makes you feel special will come up but you get disappointed. and i know forsure i dont want pity for this, this is just whats ticking in my mind ever since yesterday. our family's are seirously there for us so much. I thank God for a family, not a family like a church but immediate family. that there is God giving you a support group and having unity with others. i'm so thankful for my parents and i'm so sorry to everyone who has to deal with me everyday. i know theres beauty in all of us but frick i never knew i could have so many faults haha. well i love everyone and this feels hecka good just typing it all out :) i love you munches and bunches <3

God,

thank you for such great people in my life.

i pray that people will grow a bigger heart for my faults and that i can have a bigger heart for others faults.

Lord help me to understand waht patience and understanding means.

help me to really learn the 9 fruits of the spirit.

Thank you Jesus for just giving me everything i have

i pray this in Jesus' name, amen.

(i decided to end posts with prayers, tricky tricky ;)

9 fruit of the spirits:

peace

love

joy

kindness

happiness

gentleness

patience

faithfulness

self-control