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man.... worst week ever. got sick, and something else.... ugh so much stress and struggling this week, but learned a lot too i guess. honesty and staying strong is something i really needed to work on this week, and i deserve punishments i deserve, but God is so forgiving and gives people the heart to be sympathetic, and give you a little break from this crappy world, that was once beautiful but humans just corrupted it so much... man so hard to find love, but God delivers when needed. i'm glad im' in the position i'm in, i don't deserve a lot of stuff and God is watching my back already this year when i don't notice. why do we go what we go through? "greater the training greater the mission", but i feel like God is great but that saying is a lie because every moment in life isn't used for a greater mission. sitting in front of a computer or a tv to waste your time and rot your brain doesnt help in any way for my future, whatever it is. why do i write on a blog? haha i like typing more i should probably get like a .... electronic journal? haha those are cool. but yeah. man, seriously lucked out this week. thank you God forreal.... school life is so stressful, blahhh