Our minds and soul and heart and thoughts all affect one another, having impure thoughts can give you a bad heart to make your soul look bad… a bad heart gives you impure thoughts that makes your soul bad… Bad souls make a heart bad to give us impure thoughts… what makes us feel good though? Make us happy to make sure we have pure thoughts, pure hearts, and pure souls. How do people affect us? The way we want to have such close friends, but cant get it, how we want close family, but can’t get it, want someone special but cant get it. Its probably all our faults.. right? Man I was reading a friend’s blog but man… it’s the hardest thing to turn over a new leaf and be a good Christian. Today without even thinking i sinned like a million times… I feel so bad but after I keep doing it and my impure habits keep occurring, I just frickin give up. Especially when you know some goals you have or some feelings you have can only go so far, you know your limitations as a human and how you are not perfect to the slightest bit, that someone’s always better than you in some cases WAY BETTER THAN YOU THAT YOU GOT NO CHANCE. Some people have everything in the world. They got it going good for them… I want to feel that too but I’m guessing at the end its my fault once more. But why does that make us decide we’re less of a person? Just blaming us, feeling sorry for ourselves, hoping for a miracle that will never happen when you wish but never try to get.
God,
I’m hecka tired of feeling sorry for myself, always wishing to be like other people and I just wanna live worry free and just look up to you. I want to start a new life, born anew without anything going on but my previous life makes it so hard for me. I’m too used to habits that it doesn’t work overnight, and I feel so much to be blamed for and that I’m so lonely and I know you are a great God but… I’m always clouded with gloomy and heart breaking feelings that I don’t know what to do. God please I BEG YOU let me just find people that really care and want to be with me.. but that’s selfish.. should I find my faults I see in myself and try harder to fix it to make myself better, whether good or bad? God I just idk.. I need you God…
BRIAN NA!
ReplyDeletei know i can't get into your mind to understand and get the gist of what you're going through, but i want you to know that regardless of what you say, what other people say, what you think, or what other people think.. i'm here for you to the end.
we've had a rough past, not going to lie. we disagree, but what friendship doesn't have an occasional disagreement, yeah?
stick it out bud, things will turn out for the best before you know it (: