past, present, future

frick.... i'm wasting so much of my time lately trying to just finish a simple assignment like chemistry, which i know i can do but i'm so lazy and i feel hecka stupid :( man being a junior is starting to get to me, like i feel pressured to do so well by my family, friends, and teachers. i remember how easy school was when we were in elementary school having to do 1+1's or 2+2's then making a joke about how 1+1 = looks like a window... and now seeing this i feel so stressed out just thinking about what i have to do just to even get into some college that maybe no ones ever heard of. but i'm thinking all of this as a junior, only 16 and i think its hecka overwhelming, its too much to handle. parents having such a high expectation compared to my brother, friends already starting a unconscious rivalry, somewhat of a competition to see whos the better student and who can get those 4.0 gpa's with volunteer hours and able to become leaders of clubs just to try to impress a school. it bothersome cuz not all of us, me, arent as smart as others.. and its hard to keep up :( blahhhhhhhh, but yeah i was feeling hecka down but the beautiful nina yoon said soemthing that was super nice. she said:
"One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering."
I was so blinded by my own personal, self gaining thoughts that i never thought about how i should focus my life one day at a time and i should really try to incorporate God in my life. which got me to think, how amazing it is that God can change people so much and how much God can change us through them. I never thought in a million years i would love all the people i do right now, my heart just feels overjoyed when i think about these people. but then nina also reminded me about how God can work through ANY of us. i love nina and i know she loves to fool around, but frick what she said was HECKA WISE~! haha man she's amazing i love that girl, anyways. idk. i felt overwhelmed and now i feel very calm and complacent right now. i thank God for the people in my life forreal. they help me so much. i have so much support, i feel NEARLY invincible to anything. i feel so untouchable with the power people give me, being united, become one with friends who seem like they dont care just cuz you dont see them a lot or you dont hang out with them a lot. they are forever one with you. man, what a wonderful group of people forreal

"You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present." - Ooway's quote (Kung Fu Panda)