life.

life is a b word straight up. haha but i'm glad i know for sure who to turn to. i slept at my friends house and it was fun but hecka weird. time went by so fast like there was no tomorrow, but we didn't do anything. we just sat in silence most of the time. but it was so much fun, and he was so open to whatever i had to ask or whatever i wanted to say and didnt judge (although he was looking at knives for cooking... weirdo haha :) you dont really get what God blesses you with till you have to go all the way down to the ground and see who helps bring you back up to stand on your feet, no matter how weak and tired you are. those friends only come by so much... i think i've screwed up too many. i've been thinking about whos gonna come when i should focus on what i already have. life isn't over just cuz of one lame person who just does whatever he.. or she.. wants. right? but those things get to me so much. but i guess its time to mature and move on the reality where life is a b word and i dont always get the friends i wish i could keep forever, no matter how much i would miss them, especially now that i'm a junior.. hm...  thats life.