motivation.

what gets us going? love, positive attitudes, friends, family, etc.. they all motivate us to do something with our lives. what if our life is going down? how do we find this motivation to help us through that struggle? people usually say God, which is no doubt right, but i feel like there's more to it than God. i know that God can do all things, but we're such narrow minded people, we need direction that are so obvious and infront of us, and for this reason i feel that God sends us people or signs that will direct us, therefore its more than only God because he uses other things. my point to this is that who we associate ourselves with is so important. no doubt people have mistakes, but everyone, good or bad, makes you motivated to be better than these people, to be like these people, or to be the opposite of these people. now days in life i see my friends and i wish so much to be like them, but then those flaws we have show me what i dont want to be, and i know we can't be perfect, but i dont get why i dont try to do anything? no motivation. or it could be i have motivation, but self-esteem is low or i just dont feel its something that people would think is a good idea... its kinda confusing i know but yeah. where are those leaders in our lives that have time to just sit and talk to you, be your best friend?? i need to go read the bible and contemplate. something i learned today is that no matter what we read in the bible it is very important. today at church, my pastor kept emphasizing wisdom and to not forsake it (proverbs 4:1-7). idk now days i don't even listen to anything people say to me, but whenever i hear something beneficial or something that will possible affect my life, i can memorize it so well... idk random though, haha but yeah.. i need to find my motivation...