love?

what is love? or even any feelings related to it? everything we do makes or breaks us and really affects the way we act to everyone. like the love/like you have for another person (i.e... opposite gender) why do we get so emotionally attached to someone where the thought of them not being with you makes you sad or when you have a best friend you love and cherish but somehow and for some reason you guys tend to break apart from one another, once coalesced, and now so detached from one another. why do these emotions make us feel like we're at the bottom of the world and the best that we can do is nothing but just be the sucky person that we are at the specific time? i want to love people so much like i did, but why do i see the hate and the imperfections of others? love, faithfulness, and patience. they all connect somehow but why do we fail so much when we are missing even one of the 3? i miss having that open heart to accept others for their great characteristics and not by the flaws they live by. i know people are good but why do i feel so lonely in this world? i'm so desperate in my life for everything to work out i dont see the optimistic views of living anymore, its so sad because i know i love everyone but now i get that hatred feel as well; that nasty, inhumane feeling, and just always acrimoniously thinking of how stupid people are, feeling rather mundane. i want to live for more than this and i want to be happy, optimistic and i know i can.. but where do i start? how do i get there? can i really do all this alone? i need that best friend again. the worst feeling in this world is not when you are alone, its where you're surrounded by people (even friends) and still feel so lonely.. even in the bible it says that it only takes 2 or 3 people to have the presence of the holy spirit in the room (something like that). unity and relations dictate the outcome of our lives especially now that we are starting to grow out of the foolish, childish lives we used to live and no onto reality, and having to face the life struggles to survive and then have disposable income to have fun, the only reason we really need money. my teacher said this yesterday in his rant about networking or something. and he began to discuss what these "social" sites are doing to us (like Facebook, Myspace, Twitter). He said, "Because of these sites, the generation, you guys, and the generations to come are becoming rude and socially awkward people..." or something on those lines, but i totally agree with him. we hid so much of ourselves through all these "social" sites that don't even work because you never add someone you don't know on facebook compared to introducing yourself to someone in the real world. i dont really know where i'm going with this. but life is a b word and it can such like a mother. this is just a daily journal to see where i'm at with my journey of trying to become a optimistic loving person once again...

Love is like water; We can fall in it. We can drown in it. And we can't live without it. -Unknown (got that from deep thinker Jonthan Sheu:)