stupid decisions.

i've made so many stupid decisions in my life. going with what i feel at the time and not looking in the future to see how it'll affect my life, and i'll only end my day looking at the past... i have so many things to say sorry for but after saying it so much, it loses its meaning. i'm not truly sorry about saying it to you because i know i meant it in a ways so we could work our friendship, i'm just sorry we lost that connection we had, i loved you so frickin much. you were there so much in my life, 10th and now starting 11th grade.. thats how long i've gone without having a best friend again because kinda hard to fill in for someone who was my brother.. i really miss you brotha and i hope our past works out somehow... i hear about how you struggle and i wish i could be there for you, and i hope i am always here for you. i love you so much.. ahh haha i hope you get how much you still mean to me, the point where i never forget about you and i can't get over the fact you and me are lost... i'm just starting to get over it.. haha i guess there's nothing else to say because i know you'll probably never see this.. just a note, never forget those who have been there for you and watch what you say brian, or else you might lose people dear to you...